My feet are killing me!

My feet are killing me!

An expression people use much too often, especially when they don't mean it. For example - you have been shopping all day, walking around in shops and carrying bags of stuff. At the end of the day your feet are all swollen and you are hoping for a nice, relaxing moment with your feet raised up. Well, that is how I feel every day after standing for a couple of minutes or walking about 200meters. And the worst is, the pain doesn't go away, and the next bit of walk is shorter and it gets shorter all day until you simply cannot take another step without fierce pain.

Today I lit up the fireplace. The firewood is stacked beside it and I lifted a few blocks of wood and some paper to start the fire. This took about 3minutes, and halfway I felt like giving up for the time being, but once again I bit my lip and just kept on. Then I had to take ten steps to my chair, it felt like forever.

How on earth am I able to do anything anymore? Everytime I feel this stupid pain, my spirits are lowered from the low point they already were at. This coldness just makes me worse day by day, I have to get to a warmer place.

Tomorrow we head off to my parents' house, we'll stay there for many days. I have made plans for us, lets see what we'll accomplish. The main reason is that my son has been asked to audition for a leading role in a film, and that gave me an excuse to make plans around Thursday. On Wednesday we'll meet a very dear friend, and maybe (just maybe) on Friday evening, I'll go out with my friends. That is just maybe. A very big question mark. Just might be possible that I do not have the energy, but you'll never know.

Maybe this brief vacation cheers me up. I truly hope so, because I notice myself that I have changed, for the worse. Previously I have been a very difficult person to my nearest, and now it's ten time more awful. Honestly, if I had to choose, I wouldn't live with myself. But I don't, so I have to and I do. And once again, I thank my wife for her long temper with me. She deserves something better, but still she is with me.

When we start, I'll take my computer with me, so let's see how often updates will appear!